Top 5 Songs In My Current Playlist

1. Not A Bad Thing - Justin Timberlake

Instant major LOVE!!!

2. Beating Heart - Ellie Goulding

love the beat, love the lyrics, love everything with Ellie Goulding..

I must watch Divergent..

the main guy character got my heart with his perfect handsome look..

3. Hold On We're Going Home - ASTR (cover)

Sooo good!! Eargasm.. 

4. Love Never Felt So Good - Michael Jackson ft Justin Timberlake

Remake, and LOVE this one too..

5. Problem - Ariana Grande ft Iggy Azalea

What a perfect combo to upbeat song from Ariana Grande and Iggy Azalea

I like Iggy's rap, beibiii..

7 Reasons Why Justin Timberlake Is A Drop Panties Guy

1. He suit up properly!
I don't know you girls, but for me, Man in proper black suit will always be my kryptonite..
okay, not all men in this world maybe can make it as JT does..
but, for me, I love man who can dress tidy and formal.. and also, men in suit presents masculinity..
the black tie, black suit, golden tie clip, cufflinks, and the shirt behind that nice -expensive- suit just.. oh God!!! I literally do mouth watering!

2. He has that sexy back, and also sexy moves
Since he is the member of Nsync, he is the best dancer among the other members IMO.
and in his 33, he still has that moves, ladies!!
In Mirror and TKO MVs, are the best dance performs of him lately..
no, not just in those 2 MVs, but in every MVs!!!!!

3. He has sexy voice
No need to explain if you already hear his songs..
If you haven't heard any of his song, SHAME ON YOU!!
Where did you live after all this time?? 
You should get your ass in front of your laptop, open Youtube, 
and search Justin Timberlake in the search box, like NOW!!!!
but, I doubt you haven't heard any of his song..
either you are lying, you are stupid hipsters, or you live in other galaxy..

4. Another nice sideburns and subtle beard
Again, only JT can put this look become oh so sexy!!
His sideburns are just so manly in his masculine jaws..
And the subtle beard?? I rarely love man in beard or moustache because mostly it will look dirty and horrible.
But as long as a guy can nailed subtle beard like the way JT did, he is 100% guaranteed can have me in the first place..
hahahaha

5. He has that ONE MILLION WATT smile
Yes!! I LOVE the way his smile.. 
In one same time, you can look his sexy badass side, and.. the nice next door guy.
So, while you introduce him to your big family, they will give you approved seal..
and after you back home with him, you can have that wild sexy badass god!!
what a lucky Biel!!!!

6. He loves his mother
In many occasions, and including red carpet, you will see he came with his mom..
held her hands, and took photos together..
They have strong bond I guess..
and his mother is known as one of his biggest fans..
Recently, Justin Timberlake gave his mama a shout-out, too, tweeting, "#HappyMothersDay to Janet Lynn... You're the greatest leader and I'm so proud to be your son. I love you so much, Momma!! J" 
what a sweet guy!!

7. He has GREAT music team
JT now known always had a performance with GREAT music team, Tennessee Kids..
whether in shows, MV, and concert, Tennessee Kids always with him and together they really nailed every performance!
Tennessee Kids also dress very well, in black suits.. perfect team with JT as the front man!

Nobody Realizes That Some People Expend TREMENDOUS ENERGY Merely To Be NORMAL

Some people said, every girls were the same..
there was no difference amongst them..
Some people said, there was bullshit if a girl said, 'I'm not like the other girls..'
while the other said, yes, 'This girl is one of a kind, she is different'
Me??
I said, girls are same at some points, but yes.. we of course are different..
maybe guys will say, girls are same.. they demand a lot of attention, wanna treated like a princess, and bla bla bla bla..
but, no.. we are different!
at least, I am different or, a very minimum quantity girls in this planet are like me too..
I am totally different..
same genus with girls, but from another species, another planet, another galaxy I guess..
why??
while the other girls are so easy to open their heart even after 2 years relationship with their ex, I find myself is so goddamn difficult to give a guy to step in a little bit in my life..
while the other girls are so easy peasy find relationship and get deeper into it, I find myself is really difficult to have one..
while other girls are so damn good in playing hide and seek with guys, I find myself just can't hide, okay.. I'm emotionally slutty..
while the other girls are so easy to curb their energic personality in front of opposite sex in the first date, I find myself very casually and usually act like complete random moron, just like myself in front of my besties..
my biggest problem -or not problem, I guess- is.. I reveal my-complete random and moron-self too soon..
in what minute you ask?? in 1 second after I meet that guy in first date.
I act so random.. talking nothing important? -well, it was first date!!-
and.. there was nothing mysterious about me..
any people can know me as the bubbly, loud, chirpy, happy personality..

my friends always suggest me to take myself slowly.. be mysterious.. be quiet.. be shy.. be like a TRULY GIRL -I am truly girl though, you know-
She suggested me not to reveal my happy loud personality..
God knows, I was trying..
like.. really trying.. so hard.. so bad..
and it was end up for me as the boring very normal girl..
as Bryanboy posted in Instagram "Nobody realizes that some people expend TREMENDOUS ENERGY merely to be NORMAL."
hell, yes!!
I spend tremendous energy and emotions during the whole time in the first date..
Acted like quiet, shy girl, like what my girl friend suggested..
I did that.. and it was really awkward..
maybe some people will agree with her..
but for me, who already tried it and was so not me, I WILL COMPLETELY REFUSE THAT ADVICE NEXT TIME..
maybe some people will say too, silence is ok..
for me, IT WAS SO NOT OKAY.. it was so so so AWKWARD..
imagine my conversation in the car when that guy picked me up..
G (Guy) : Hey, nice to meet you :)
M (Me) : Nice to meet you too..
G: What you doin before I come??
M: Cleaning my apartment, and taking long shower :).. you??
G: What a diligent girl.. hehe.. Me?? just get home from my busy routine, and relax, play video game..
M: Oh, okay.. (try to be quiet, shy, normal, very feminine girl).. er.. what kind of video game??
G: You know, GTA, and Fast and Furious..
M: (in my mind => "WOW!! I know GTA! sometimes I played it with my older brother when we were younger.. how is that game now?? getting better?? and FF?? I watch the movie, but not play the game.. Maybe I will try to play it next time.. Hey, if you want to play, I can join you, if I may..")
BUT . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
my friend suggested me to curb my enthusiasm and be quiet and shy, normal girl, who MAYBE, MOSTLY not interested in guys' video game activity, so there was me.. sat quietly and NODDED okay..
what the heck.. it was stupid awkward silence..
okay, maybe I shouldn't add the last sentence that ask if I can join him playing video game..
I am very conscious, that girl needs to play a little bit hard to get..
but it is really different between play hard to get and being someone who is really not yourself, dont you think??
while the other means, try not to be too available and show your interest much in a guy, and maybe..chasing him like some crazy desperate cheesy bitch, BUT STILL BE YOUR COMPLETE SELF..
the other means don't show any interest, don't show your true identity, don't act like you usually behave in front of your very besties, show him that you are mysterious, let him take in charge of everything, from find a topic until.. everything??

then, I got some revelations..
from http://thoughtcatalog.com/chelsea-fagan/2013/08/guys-only-want-the-shy-pretty-girls/
It's written by Chelsea Fagan..
oh, I love her so much..
her writing give me some light..
that it is okay to be your loud funny crazy -in a good way- self..
if many guys who were of course not your SO in future, they of course wont accept you for being your loud funny crazy -in a good way- self..
but, one day, in the end..
you will find someone who knows you for the real you and still find you attractive with those kind of personality..
even more, they will love you more and more because of those..

PS: my other favorite writers in Thought Catalog is Christopher Hudspeth and Zaron Burnett III :)

One, Two, Three

Quick post after visited art exhibition by EmTe, a.k.a Moh. Taufiq..
Nice nice niceee arts!

Btw.. I just shared my mom's crazy experiences with my friends..
And,..

One thing for sure.. my mom is a SUPERHERO!!
For the braveness, and the logic sense brain, and her ability in almost everything..
I love you beyond this Milky Way, momma!!

Two prays for her, that when I grown up and success, I will make her and my dad happy for the rest of their lives, and.. when the time comes to back to Father, they will end up in heaven with Him ♥

Three words for you again mom, I Love You!
(Even I never said that eyes to eyes)

Inside North Korea Documentary Youtube Video

So here are my questions to North Koreans if I can ask them, mostly youths / teenagers around my age..

1. If you said and kinda, not kinda but really hate western people, Americans as they described, why the hell you guys learn how to speak English?? WHY?? and based on what I read in Wikipedia, one of their great leader was a fans of Elvis Presley.. He is American you know!!

2. If it is really a goddamn GREAT country, why you guys seems to live in 80s??
Lack of electricity, and I guess limited internet.. OR.. OR.. they don't have it or know about it at all.. now is 2000 century peopleeeee.. 
From what I see, almost every buildings in there are POOR!! yes, poor!! 
The metro station is like terrifying train tunnels.. yes, you guys have this colorful lamps on the ceiling for almost every metro station, but in low watt quality.. come on.. don't you guys just feel the creepy aura?? Oh, and I guess there is no malls..

3. If there was no malls, how you guys can find great beauty products?? such as VS, MAC, Benefit, The Balm-cute packaging!-, ABH, Bobbi Brown.. HOW??????????????
The other stuffs, good fashion brands, such as Gucci, Fendi, Prada, LV?????
SO DAMN SAD BEING A GROWN UP LADIES in there IMHO..
Only a very rich or very important family from government can have a privileges more than civilized people in there..
You guys have to see how they dressed.. If it wasn't uniform, it might be traditional clothes.. While their first lady from any photos you can see now in internet, showed, she dressed in Chanel!! yes, CHANEL modern suit!!!!

3. How great is the brainwashed technique that their leaders use to them??
Until almost NK people bound to them with complete loyalty..
I mean, can you imagine your whole life being dictated and forbidden by the government..
In my assumptions too, they don't have good musics, good TV dramas like their neighbor -South Korea- has, no access to GREAT tv cable -HBO, Fox Movies, Star World, AFC, etc- .. You can't have fun too much and you still seems like enjoy it,
like "it's okay that I can't express my happy emotions, cause it's forbidden by my state and my governments.. no it's not forbidden, but, it will make them upset if I don't obey one of their GREAT movements, I don't wanna let my state and governments down and dissapointed on me.."
Based on what I just watched, your excitement for little thing like karaoke is so limited.. You couldn't being crazy, loose yourself as what we did when we have karaoke.. And it's just for little thing.. 
The most craziest part of this brainwashed system is..
3a. HOW NK people seems to love and enjoy it??
They do their very best to pleased their leader.. anything.. like..
one leader like huge spectacle show.. so they made it.. the very biggest spectacle show at the stadium in NK, 120.000 people doing simultaneous pantomime..
PS: The show is quite amazing though.. can you imagine perimeter advertising boards on stadium?? but the size of this one is a whole seats in the stadium.. The pictures on that shown manually by humans not, electronic one.. But still it was a little bit awkward and weird??
Next leader like to see acrobatic or broadway show, I forgot.. and they practice their very best show acts to be presented in front of him.. good lorrrr..

4. How could you stand in this modern century for "what you -NK people- say AWESOME"??
Awesome here such as,..
.... Those "AWESOME LIBRARY TABLES" invention, which are invented by their leader..
So, I try describe this "AWESOME LIBRARY TABLES" inventions in here, in words..
It's like.. hospital bed, where you can set the high of the bed.. but.. hospital bed now is more AWESOME I guess, cause it's operated either by automatic remote or buttons..
While this "AWESOME LIBRARY TABLES" are operated by manual, by black medium screw..
.... Best School in the country which is for me it's a perfect set for 1940-1950s high school romance movies..
The uniform, is so.. oh, just skip it..
With computer library using 90's windows PC.. yes, with it's thick screen!!
The students there apparently handpicked by government or the country..
So, they learn, they give their best skills and efforts for country, country, country, and country ONLY..
No freedom at all!! At any conditions.. How if you wanted to play pop music on your piano, but.. your leader like traditional music better??
The only freedom they have I guess just for being alive or die..but that's still questionable though..
Imagine if you try to show lack of love and respects for your country, JAIL.. or could be worse, DEATH..

5. Do you guys, North Korean civilized people, know any type of musics or songs other than your traditional musics/songs?? 
Jazz maybe?? or Pop?? or Rock?? or Blues??
DON'T KNOW?? OF COURSE NOT!!
In the karaoke place, it's only contained MOSTLY with traditional songs, with again, people in their traditional clothes as the MV actresses or actors *really sad face now*
Okay, maybe not almost of NK people don't know other music types or movies out there, cause based on my chit-chat long time ago with my South Korean friends, little parts of NK people, who are maybe updated enough with outside world and miraculously could, do watch drama produced by SK or another countries..

6. I guess this is my last question, Do you ever guys, ever feel there is/ are something wrong with your state, and your governments?? and maybe questioned for the rationality of other people around you for being so loyal and abide to your country and governments..

For now, for me and the director from that video "Inside North Korea" on Youtube agree..
for how great brainwashed system in there made by their governments..
how it's more like doing time travel to early ninety-s country..
how I am grateful for being Indonesian and not North Korean..
how I am truly blessed born in good situation and conditions country.. even sometimes this motherland can be like shit..
can you imagine if you were a child born on North Korea by civilized family-not the powerful family- , and grew in there with mind "I WANNA GO OUT FROM THIS COUNTRY AND IT'S MADNESS!!!" but you just couldn't..

Guilty Pleasures All Over Again

Another list of my guilty pleasures..
Yeah, it seems like I have too many guilty pleasures here..
So..
Here are my updated GP list! Just, don't throw up.. please do'nt..

1. Yepp, you know what I love the most other than myself, hahaha.. I love to makeup and dress up! Maybe mostly girls in this world have the same love with me too..
I love to watch make up tutorial in website, either from Youtube, or beauty gurus, or, whatever you name it..
I watch, practice, and learn from them..
And sometimes, I like to take it to the next level.. which is..
Yes, I pretend that I am the make up guru!! Hahahahahahaha
I put my make up on, stare at my mirror and talk! Talk like I give some makeup tutorials..
Not just talk you know, but act really like a makeup guru, show the colors of the eye shadows, put my hand behind the lipstick so, it will show a clear color, and read the details of the makeup like, "so, this is MAC lipstick in Russian Red which I bought from bla bla bla.."
HAHAHAHAHAHA
It's a shame I know.. but I love it, and there is no harm in that..
I never did that in front other people except myself and well, my mirror though..
So, my secret is safe..

2. Beside makeup, dress up and doll up, the other thing I love to do in my spare time is, reading..
Reading about anything..
Reading and me, is like Bonny and Clyde or Dr.Jack and Mr. Hyde, or Romeo and Juliet, or Peanut Butter and Jelly, or.. the point is inseparable..
I can't imagine myself without reading.. for me its just like instant therapy that you can do anywhere and anytime.,
But, here is the problem.. I just realized the "anytime" I said above is a little bit difficult to do that nowadays.. I can't enjoy my reading time because, I have many tasks, a ton of tasks for this smester.. It is the most hectic and full smester that I've ever take..
And seems like it's not enough, God help me, with the very first early morning class 5 days in a week!
7am, not sharp, maybe 7.30am..
But still., I have to get up and go to class while mostly my friends still have a date with Peter Pan in Neverland there..
So, even after I finished my tasks at night or late night around 1am or 2am I still couldn't sleep and decided to read, ok my bad.. and when I look at the clock, it showed 4.30 am! CRAP!
I'm just like, shoott! I gotta had a little sleep now..
Then I slept, and 1 hour later, my alarm acted like her best behavior as a bitch trying to separate my great relationships with my pillows, and my bolsters..
I got up half conscious, took shower, I grumbled for my stupidity and PROMISED NEVER DO THIS ACTIVITY AGAIN! I NEED SLEEP -....-.. I promised!
But, you know the rest of the story, I do this exactly same activity ALL OVER AGAIN EVERY SINGLE DAY..
I believe it wasn't just me in this planet who do silly stupid things and promise won't do it again, but in the end, here we go! With the same breakable promise.. hahahaha

3. Kiss my Bears..
I am a huge fans of Bears.. Teddy Bear I mean..
All my teddys accompany me in my bed.. Without them, I feel insecure and unsafe..
Again, it's a shame..
I am 21, for godsake.. nearly 22 less than 3 months from now,.
But, we all have child side inside this mature body and mind..
Here is my GP, when I was lonely and alone, I like to talk with them like I talk with human being..
Hey it's not crazy.. cause I just did that SOMETIMES..
I like to hugged them and kissed them after my talking session..
It's like my gratitude act..
Thank you for listening to me, Teddy.. I love you soo soo much,,
Yes, I said that sentence..
Hahaha..
Sometimes when I was sad or extremely happy after my daily activities outside, I would came back to my bedroom, and just threw myself to them and started kissing them like they were my couple..
Hahahahahahaha
Just like unleash my emotion therapy..

So, I guess thats it from now..
Will keep update my GP List in future..
Hahahahahaha :D

HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER FINALE

Okay, so I just finished watching How I Met Your Mother season FINALE.. and I was in tears and shocked, and happy and scream..

it was OH MY GOD!! I LOVE THIS SHOW..

kinda sad that this my favorite series has to come to an end..

but.. kinda glad and happy too..

the ending was totally shock!! twisted!! and well, for me personally, I am SATISFIED and once again, in tears of joy! :'))))

I love every character as much as they were..

Ted, Robin, Marshall, Lily and Barney..

at first of episode 24, which was the final of the FINALE.. i was kinda sad..

for Robin and Barney.. i thought Barney will end up with Robin forever and ever and ever..

but then, something more awesome already been prepared at the end of this FINALE episode..

it was........ wait for it...........................

ROBIN AND TED WERETOGETHERRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

don't get me wrong, i love "the mother", but, for 9 seasons in total 9 years with only 5 of this gang,

I barely known her -from audience views-

oh, I am happy happy happy in tears of course..

it was touching..

how it was always been Robin, from the very first beginning..

it always been, always will.. u know..

apparantely, Ted and Robin's promise for being together in their old age became true :')

it was love you know.. LOVE!!!!!

This is how I felt!!! mixing feelings.. sad, glad, happy, and all those emotions!! :'))

been not busy actually for this week, in fact.. I have to be busy!! my assignments :'(

quick updated, just attended Marcella's bday fancy lunch treat at Royal Stag Bistro this Saturday..

nice place, nice atmosphere, nice foods..

cute tattoo eh?? hihihi ^^

left to right : Marcella (bday girl), Helena, Me, and Angel..

okay, I have to work my legs out.. they are HUGE!!!

selca due to heavy traffic jam..

couldn't stand for it, we are Asian Girls..

well, GIRLS for sure, did this during traffic jam.. most girls..

see Marcella's "big" eyes?? I made those for her..

put some fake eyelashes, eyeliner, and TARAAA!! big eyes :p

end this post with my..

PHOTO OF THE DAY!!

hahahahahaha

i love my eyebrow! Hail to me!! -ehem.. okay it was too much-