I Do What I Hate to Do

As I'm sitting here in my room and in half sleep, half asleep state..
I do realize how I hate design logo so much! By so much I mean like really really much..
I don't know how every designer in this world could make that oh so nice yet meaningful logo.,
MAJOR RESPECT!!
And now I hate myself because I complain about this homework that has to be done with 50 logos by Monday. Well it hasnt to be 50, but minimum 30.. And my friends said they are going to make 50..
Thanks because I am a Taurus, with very competitive nature, I wont settle for 30..
Maybe not going outrageously with 50 but at least 45??
And, again., I hate myself for maybe settling in 45..
My brain kinda explode in silent mode, okay I dont know how to explain how does it feel..
But, it really happened..
When we do something we don't love, it is like this..

She Gets What She Wants, BECAUSE She Works For It

First, nothing I hate more than a pretty well-dressed women who is getting misjudged for being a stupid and spoil rotten princess one..

Why accuse her for being stupid just because she is pretty and well-dressed??

This is the century when women can be pretty, well-dressed, nice/kind hearted AND also smart!!

I was being misjudged for one time when I was an intern in a suck place.. sorry not to sorry..

I'm holding no grudge for this place where I was an intern.. but really it sucks..

The boss of this work place said that she never thought I will get along in her company, remember her work place is all about forest and nature one..

Just because every time I came to work there with my -very natural minimal- makeup on, doesn't mean I couldn't stand working in a forest..

Okay, it was not a forest. more like nature national park..

'Nuff with my story..

But really, why woman can't be pretty and smart??

Nowdays there are many super models who are not only they're pretty and popular but also down to earth, and really smart..

I'm not talking smart like graduated from very prestigious university, but the real smart one..

And what the heck with the stupid theory misjudged number 2, pretty women can't work their asses off and always, again, want to get eveything they want just by playing their lashes..

Well, some pretty women MIGHT doing that..

But, some pretty women are not doing it..

First, pardon me to say this.. I'm pretty enough, and no I'm not a narcissistic by saying I'm pretty enough. I know I'm not that miss beauty pageant pretty kind, but at least some people, older women who are totally stranger, and bumped on me in the street saying I'm pretty :p

So.. back to what I wanna say..

yes, pretty girl like me, HAHAHAHA, works her ass off to earn money by and for herself..

My mom always teach me, if you wanna buy something that you want such as clothes, shoes, makeups, or other fun shits for yourself, WORK FOR IT..

Earn some money and buy it..

I was born from a middle class family..

Sometimes, my mom still buy me my clothes, shoes, makeups, or anything I want of course..

But she gives me limits..

She's not going to spoil me by buying all those expensive shits I want, like ever!

I remember, when I was in a senior high school, I was falling in love with this gorgeous black pump shoes.. It costed IDR 900.000,- back then.. And for high schooler like me, of course it was like cost me quite a fortune..

I wanted them so badly, and I was begging her to buy me..

And my mom said, "That price for shoes is not cheap for girl in your age.. If you really want it, work for it.."

My mom told me to work for buying that shoes, because from my early age as senior high student, I already worked in a wedding organizer, owned by my uncle..
and even i dont have any jobs, at least all i can do was saving money for those shoes..

Even it's owned by my uncle, I get paid with the same amount like his real employees..

Long story short, I got that my very first pump shoes!!

And not only that shoes I was getting, but I get my very first lesson too from my #MOMBOSS

"You want it?? Work for it"

She is my very, again, first #GIRLBOSS

Because Pain is A Drug??

Why people keep getting into relationship after relationship after relationship??

When you break up with your partner, don't you feel it hurts you so much and you hope the pain doesn't really happen??

Maybe getting in a relationship is like getting a tattoo..

People said yes it hurts, like a lot, well because getting a tattoo means you make some artsy scar on your skin, but again, it's addictive..

Maybe getting in a relationship again is like getting pregnant..

It hurts like shit, you get your vagina being cut, but some people said they wanna keep getting pregnant. Again, it's addictive..

But if it -getting a tattoo, pregnant, relationship- hurts, why at the same time it's so addictive??

Doesn't that mean people are crazy cause they like, well like Rihanna said, like the way it hurts??

Why are people getting in a relationship, even they already know, that person might hurt you, intentionally or not intentionally??

Too many questions running through my head this day..
Either is it because my period makes my hormones jump like crazy so I keep asking a silly question, or because I'm keep being my bestie's relationship witness??

Taboo Talk??

Just today, me and my 2 close girls hang out together on a fast food resto..
Ordered a french fries with some milk tea that we bought earlier..
And before I started my story, I think, I'd like to say, women are men with vaginas..
As Carrie Bradshaw said in Sex and The City series, I forgot which episode, she said, Men are women with penis, or otherwise?
Why I'd like to say that statement??
Because asides from all our differences, men and women on conversation's topics mostly are 3 things, if it's not about their opposite sex, hobbies, or sex..
When men hang out together, they will talk mostly about their jobs, women, automotives/ sports, and SEX..
When women hang out together, they will talk mostly about their jobs, men, hot and latest gossips, and SEX too..
Who said when it comes to sex women are so shy to talk about it??
Women don't talk about that as much as men did, it's bullshit..
Maybe if you lived in the age of Kartini, sex is still a taboo to be talked, well at least in Indonesia, my country..
But, I think nowdays, as ages change, and generations change too, sex is not a taboo thing to be discussed, or even to do..
So, back to my topic.. me and my 2 friends, in our early 20s, we are really curious about sex..
Not only because we are a virgin, but I think as the early ladies to be, the hormones about sex just act crazy..
In Indonesia, some women still prefer to save their virginity to their husband to-be even some women already did it before marriage..
So while we still never did that, we prefer to talk about that..
There's nothing wrong with talking about sex and sharing your sex imaginations to your trusty friends, right??
Earlier before I talk about sex with these 2 friends of mine, I had a psychology test with a friend with psychology major.. And the result was.. I had tons of wild sex imaginations.. HAHAHAHA
Again, he ended with, "that's normal.. In your ages, you will think about sex that much.."
And indeed I am agree with him!
But why, while we knows that men are not so different with women about sex talk, it's still taboo for some women in 20s, especially in Indonesia, to talk about it??