#YOLO

i'm kinda obsessed with beanie nowdays..

and yes.. i just bought this blue beanie..

it's color just too good to resist..

hihihi :p

and yes.. nowdays i change my softlens to brown one instead of the clear one..

i just want a little change..

and no, it's not Barbie softlens to makes my eyes look bigger..

i have big eyes for Chinese breed because i am mixing blood..

and this softlens turns out make it a LITTLE BIT bigger..

these last 2 photos taken last year when i had crazy unforgettable NYE party in Shanghai..

you can tell how i miss this!

party.. and of course my friends!

Hee Su, my Korean friend already back to Korea..

we still keep in touch..

but.. seems lately she's kinda busy..

until she's not too often online in Facebook..

i miss this togetherness..

yet, it won't be back for 2nd times..

and i dare you to bet, that if it could happened for the second times. it won't be as GREAT, as AWESOME as the first one..

many things in life are come and destined to happen for only 1 time..

the only thing you can do is just, live and love that moment at that time..

even it won't happened again and again and again, 

you still can remember it for one of the best things you could LIVE..

#YOLO

You Only Live Once :)

Contrast

Even it's started raining outside, and will be a cloudy day..
but my mood is really contrast with it..
i am not gonna bragging..
but just wanna share how happy i am and yes, i am really proud after seeing my boss..
it all started when i helped him to photocopy some documents and arrange it..
after that distributed the documents to all seniors..
then..
he gave me credit cause i did it well, fast and tidy..
hihihi..
soon after that he gave me more tasks to do..
to make the story short, i did my tasks well :)
i don't give myself compliments..
i just think i have to do it right..
and just happened, he called me to talk face to face..
and said "i'm gonna give you 3 questions.. answer it fast.."
"okay.."
"first, you like working hard??"
"Yes.." i said..
"Second, what are you gonna do? after your internship i mean.."
"Back to school.. finish my degree.. maybe in January 2015 will apply here again.. work for 1-2 years and try to get scholarship to Shanghai.. -yes, I always want to come back to Shanghai.. study for Mandarin language of course..and i really love that city! but, west countries are open to me too :p"
"Good.. and last one, you always wearing color contact lens?"
"Ehmm..yess, my minus is 8.. -confuse..it's funny he asked this-"
"I mean why have to wear color contact lens that makes your eyes look bigger?"
"Well.. i want to looked more attractive.. -in fact i have no idea why i want to wear the color one instead of clear lens that i used to use all the time.. fact too, i just wanna have different atmosphere? by changing my color lens..hahahaha-"
"You already look attractive.."
HAHAHAHAHHA..
my boss is really nice guy!! his girlfriend must be really a lucky girl!!
LOL..
the point is.. he said he wants to make me his assistant to do his job as the strategic planning director..
he said too that he sees something different from me that will make me success in future..
-okay now i have crystal eyes! tears in the edge of my eyes..hahaha :')-
and i said.. well.. my friends said i'm obsessed..
and he gave me really nice advice.. "no.. it's not obsessed.. it depends on where you looking at.. what you want to get.. you want to be success, don't you?"
"yes.. i always want to be success.. previously, before have internship in here, i always try to look after and had part time job.. i like to have my own salary.. earn money by myself.."
"that's good.. good for you.. take my words as compliment.."
"yep.. thanks, W*** .."

oh my God..
suck that my envy "friends".. -okay, i am too over say it-
i am not obsessed.. i just always want to be success more than my other friends i think..
and yes.. i WILL..
thank YOU, GOD!!!!
because of You, my boss can said these stuffs..
I LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it's ironic cause 3 days before today, i felt sad at late night..
and got hard to sleep until 3am..
cause i think i am not happy with my life..
i think, and i feel i always got rejected..
but today, HE shows me the opposite..
that i have something..
huhuhuhuhu :')
my GOD IS AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!
hihihi..

btw too..
today i try to less my meal portion..
why??
because, yes i am still fat..
and my friends now all on diet..
they gym and diet though!
crazy..
i don't wanna look the fattest one, while all my friends are already become skinnier..
hahahaha..
yeah, girls :p

Turn My Whole Upside Down

color wheel of perfect gelato at Table 8 Hotel Mulia for client's event..

love in a plate of Haagen Dazs!

super cute brooch!

thank you, mom!! love you to the moon and back :*

grilled salmon, mashed potato, coleslaw and sauted mushrooms by Marche :p

our new General Manager, mas Aries Nugroho!!

thank you so much for huge treat in Marche :D

fast breakfast at office lately..

camwhore-ing at IIMS 2013 for client's event!!

i know i am FAT FAT FAT FAT!!! :'(

extra work at weekend with Sushi Tei :/

thank you my super best friend, Vincent Bule!!

i hope the chocodate more than two by the way :p

lately dinner for my "monthly guest"

another camwhore-ing at IIMS 2013 for client's event..

new varsity jacket!!!!!

hihihihi ><

so what's going on with my life lately is..

i really enjoy working in my company where i have my internship now..

they have great clients with great events, and mostly always ended with free really luxurious delicious foods!

that's why i guess i cant lose my weight..

instead of losing my weight, i gain my weight like crazy!!

especially after my mom was coming..

everyday eat, eat and eat..

she always forbid me to eat..

but how am i supposed to do when all great free foods are in front of your eyes???

okay, i cant control my desire to eat..

my bad!

hahahaha

Mr and Mrs. Smith :')

My wife got sick. She was constantly nervous because of problems at work, personal life, her failures and children. She lost 30 pounds and weighted about 90 pounds. She got very skinny and was constantly crying. She was not a happy woman. She had suffered from continuing headaches, heart pain and jammed nerves in her back and ribs. She did not sleep well, falling asleep only in the mornings and got tired very quickly during the day.

Our relationship was on the verge of a break up. Her beauty was leaving her somewhere, she had bags under her eyes, she was poking her head, and stopped taking care of herself. She refused to shoot the films and rejected any role. I lost hope and thought that we’ll get divorced soon… But then I decided to act. After all I’ve got the most beautiful woman on earth. She is the idol of more than half of men and women on earth, and I was the one allowed to fall asleep next to her and to hug her. I began to shower her with flowers, kisses and compliments. I surprised and pleased her every minute. I gave her a lot of gifts and lived just for her. I spoke in public only about her. I incorporated all themes in her direction. I praised her in front of her own and our mutual friends. You won’t believe it, but she blossomed. She became better. She gained weight, was no longer nervous and loved me even more than ever. I had no clue that she CAN love that much.

And then I realized one thing: the woman is the reflection of her man.

If you love her to the point of madness, she will become it.

- Brad Pitt

I LOVE YOU MR. BRAD PITT!!

..

GOOD GREAT MORNING!!!!

well, apparently now is not morning anymore.. it's 14.45 pm now in my office..

and i already finish my tasks before lunch..

that pict was originally taken by me..

when i flew back from my hometown in Makassar, to Jakarta..

what happened in my life lately is.. LONELY!!

yeapp.. i'm lonely..

wasting my days like crazy routine..

in the rush morning, have to go to office..

get back home extremely tired while i'm on my way home to apartment..

i always ask my senior high school friends here to go out in the weekend..

but, CAN'T.. cause they have their DATING ROUTINE with their partner..

btw.. put that sadness away first..

i'm doing my life well..

and last week i have a chance to go back to Bandung..

well, cause, -ehem!- I WON INTERNATIONAL POSTER COMPETITION in Shanghai last year..

hihihihihihihi..

so happy lahhh..

i think that i will get my money prize, 500 RMB last week..

but because Marcella is so stupid.. well, in fact, we will get our money prize by September..

but it's okay.. since i can hang out with my friend in Bandung for hours..

with Mustache Marcella..

lunch in Tudari, Korean Restaurant, beside campus..

well this is just the compliment one :)

favorite seafood cheese ddeokkbokki!!!! :9

and then i have to go back to Jakarta by 5 o'clock..

and Monday starts again..

Chinese fried noodle as the dinner.. 

taste not too delicious.. but well it's okay since the price is so cheap..

sometimes when I feel lonely, I will open my photos in Shanghai..

and smile for every photos i looked..

it's not pathetic..

i just looking back to the beautiful memories you know :p

this one is in Tianzifang, one of the most famous sight seeing landmark in Shanghai..

again, I miss Shanghai SO MUCH!

last one, latest camwhore!!!!!

hihihi ^^

Me and Peter Pan don't want to grow up

If I can describe journey to be the top position in my office, right now I'm on the bottom side..

HAHAHAH..

still I proud of it..

you know why??

because, have an internship in this big office is not as easy as a piece of cake..

If I can describe my position in food chain, I'll become the easiest prey on the first stage that got eaten..

If I can describe it furthermore in food pyramid, I'll be on the bottom side of the pyramid..

it's still a long long way to achieve top position in office apparently.. except.. your family is a billionaire and become a stockholder..

you'll get the good position as non-executive director I guess..

so.. how if you're just like me..an ordinary intern girl who is struggle from the very beginning and still wants become the jobholder, and wants to get a nice position in this adult work world..

I guess, now I know why Peter Pan didn't want to grow up..

being an adult seems so fun..

you can buy anything you want..

you don't have "night time" anymore..

you can decide your own life..

you can do anything, be anything you want..

but, if I look it from now on..

from my age 21..

it looks scarier and more terrifying..

yes, it's great how you can be so independent with your own life..

but.. as Uncle Ben told Spiderman "with GREAT POWER comes GREAT RESPONSIBILITY.."

as Seth Godin said "GREATNESS is FRIGHTENING. With it comes RESPONSIBILITY."

Connection between "Packaging Design" and "Target Market"

Hiahhhh..
3 o'clock in the afternoon definitely is a time for taking a nap..
now i'm sitting in the office and typing..
tick, tick, tick..
I love my job and my office much..
but this shoulder ache because every single day i have to type is killing me..
and it doesn't count with my obligation to take my heavy laptop with me in the morning and evening..
huhuhu :'(

by the way..
wanna share a forum that i just bumped into this morning..
it seems like a forum for expat living in Jakarta and any things around it..
I didn't have any intentions to find this kind of forum, okay..
so.. the people in here come from any country, but mostly from local Indonesian mixing with expats who live in Jakarta-mostly-..

these accounts that get my attention are the account named NaughtyGab and MissNaughty ah, and SweetMaria..
MissNaughty open the topic with "For The Single Women" title..
and she was talking about how we are girls have to play hard to get IF there's a guy is chasing after you..
why??
because mostly, as we all know, and maybe don't know, that men love CHALLENGE..
okay, from me, I TOTALLY AGREE WITH HER..
but remember, IF there's a guy chasing after you -T&C APPLIED-..
after so many comments, between PROS and CONTRAS..
NG told others with this, -i'd rather copy paste it.. 
"one of my colleague is desperate to get a hubby. i wont say she is ugly, but she is unattractive. the way she dresses, the way she thinks, the fact that she never comb her hair, she refuses to use deodorant or perfume, and after 15 years looking for love ( from univ years until she works now) - she told me that no guys ever came to her ... 
we told her to open her heart for some single guys in their 40s or some widowers. she said no. this is what she said, "if i have to open my heart , means that i am chasing them, and and girls should always play hard to get!. you cant just take anyone available in the market. they have to work hard to win my heart. even it's a close heart. if he is really in love with me, he would be able to melt my heart " 
Note : she also told us that she wants a guy that is a mix between clooney, pitt, ari wibowo and a korean movie star. 
then my other colleague replied: in order to get a prince you have to be a princess. if you are a maid, then dont expect for a prince would come and save you from your crazy world. and before you could define how your prince should look like, it's better to own a mirror. 
that's harsh IMO, but somehow, i guess it's true. if after 15 years man searching work doesnt give any positive result, a princess should forget the 'hard to get' rules i believe. especially a desperate princess. "

and after this trigger, seems like everyone is so excited about it.

and keep comment..

for me, if you keep read the topic and the comments, it will open your brain and mind about this topic..

about how we always want someone to love and accept us just the way we are..

but how, if our physical appearance doesn't attractive at all??

remember, we are not the IT girl like Natalie Portman, nor Keira Knightley..

i'm not going to say that beauty from the outside is more important than beauty from the inside, your personality and other thing you want to say..

but, come on..

as the human..

you will attract to one thing or person because the physical appearance first, right??

because love comes from EYES first, then your personality will make him/her stay..

do not give me that bullshits that say "I LOVE YOU THE WAY YOU ARE.."

or, "if he really loves me, he will accept me like who i am for now.."

LOVE NEVER COMES IN THE FIRST SIGHT, DARLING.."

that's the ugly truth..

because what comes in the first sight is LUST.. NOT LOVE..

oh, and i'm talking here not to suggest you to have body like supermodel -because i'm FAT too!- , with some plastic surgery to makes your appearance looks good -I'm not SO PRETTY either-, or to make you appearance is the FIRST MOST IMPORTANT THING that you have to pay attentions more on it.

but..

i just want to share my opinion about yes, the appearance MATTERS to attract your opposite sex, or maybe your crush..

just think how good packaging of chocolate attracts you more than the bad one..

like this..

i don't know if you will choose the bottom one..
but, me? DEFINITELY the GODIVA..
HAHAHAH..
so, to attract your HIGH END "target market", you as "the company" has to pay attention on your packaging first..
right??
does it make sense now??