3.35 am and i am thinking i should write a book based on my curiosity about world..
such as sex, clubbing, gay club, sugar daddy sugar baby stuffs, money, friends. until politics maybe, and i don't know what else..
hahahahha
there are so many stuffs always running through my head in daily basis.
i guess i always asking too many questions..
unimportant questions i know..
but, doing some research and jump into the field to experience by myself are something exciting for me..
yeah, i think i should start typing it by tomorrow..
well, if i still have desire to do it..

Mom...

Somehow, when you trying make your own path, 

but on the other hand you are looking still for your parents' agreements, well mother's agreement for specifically..

Somehow too, from what you told her, she already knows what's best for you..

Just a tiny bit story, and she already knows the point of you telling the story..

Looking for agreement..

Then, out of nowhere, she spilled it out..

Because Pain is A Drug??

Why people keep getting into relationship after relationship after relationship??

When you break up with your partner, don't you feel it hurts you so much and you hope the pain doesn't really happen??

Maybe getting in a relationship is like getting a tattoo..

People said yes it hurts, like a lot, well because getting a tattoo means you make some artsy scar on your skin, but again, it's addictive..

Maybe getting in a relationship again is like getting pregnant..

It hurts like shit, you get your vagina being cut, but some people said they wanna keep getting pregnant. Again, it's addictive..

But if it -getting a tattoo, pregnant, relationship- hurts, why at the same time it's so addictive??

Doesn't that mean people are crazy cause they like, well like Rihanna said, like the way it hurts??

Why are people getting in a relationship, even they already know, that person might hurt you, intentionally or not intentionally??

Too many questions running through my head this day..
Either is it because my period makes my hormones jump like crazy so I keep asking a silly question, or because I'm keep being my bestie's relationship witness??

Top 5 Songs In My Current Playlist

1. Not A Bad Thing - Justin Timberlake

Instant major LOVE!!!

2. Beating Heart - Ellie Goulding

love the beat, love the lyrics, love everything with Ellie Goulding..

I must watch Divergent..

the main guy character got my heart with his perfect handsome look..

3. Hold On We're Going Home - ASTR (cover)

Sooo good!! Eargasm.. 

4. Love Never Felt So Good - Michael Jackson ft Justin Timberlake

Remake, and LOVE this one too..

5. Problem - Ariana Grande ft Iggy Azalea

What a perfect combo to upbeat song from Ariana Grande and Iggy Azalea

I like Iggy's rap, beibiii..

Goose bumps??

not at all..

even, seems like i forget that tomorrow gonna leave my country for a while..

tomorrow before i take off to Shanghai, have a lot of businesses to deal with!

starting with meet my Head Department, go to money changer, go to bank to deal with my M-Banking, and have to buy some medicines for my nasty allergy..

till the very last day, i didn't have any relaxing me day..

in my mind, in my plan,..

i wanna have fully body treatment..

but what can i say..

some things are have to left behind for something really really IMPORTANT..

can't imagine that less than 24 hours, i will go to Shanghai!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHHA XD

*so random*

We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together - Taylor Swift

I remember when we broke up the first time
Saying, "This is it, I've had enough," 'cause like
We hadn't seen each other in a month
When you said you needed space. (What?)
Then you come around again and say
"Baby, I miss you and I swear I'm gonna change, trust me."
Remember how that lasted for a day?
I say, "I hate you," we break up, you call me, "I love you."

Oooh we called it off again last night
But oooh, this time I'm telling you, I'm telling you

We are never ever ever getting back together
We are never ever ever getting back together
You go talk to your friends, talk to my friends, talk to me
But we are never ever ever ever getting back together

Like, ever...

I'm really gonna miss you picking fights
And me, falling for it screaming that I'm right
And you, would hide away and find your peace of mind
With some indie record that's much cooler than mine

Oooh, you called me up again tonight
But oooh, this time I'm telling you, I'm telling you

We are never ever ever getting back together
We are never ever ever getting back together
You go talk to your friends, talk to my friends, talk to me (talk to me)
But we are never ever ever ever getting back together

Oooh yeah, oooh yeah, oooh yeah
Oh oh oh

I used to think that we were forever ever
And I used to say, "Never say never..."
Uggg, so he calls me up and he's like, "I still love you,"
And I'm like... "I just... I mean this is exhausting, you know, like,
We are never getting back together. Like, ever"

No!

We are never ever ever getting back together
We are never ever ever getting back together
You go talk to your friends, talk to my friends, talk to me
But we are never ever ever ever getting back together

We, ohhh, getting back together,ohhh,
We, ohhh, getting back together

You go talk to your friends, talk to my friends, talk to me (talk to me)
But we are never ever ever ever getting back together

♪( ´θ｀)ノ♬♪♬♪

Jadi, orang-orang diluar sana, yang masih kepo tentang kehidupan saya..

pernah tidak Anda-Anda sekalian berpikir untuk mengurusi hidup Anda sendiri??

well, saya tahu, mungkin sekarang kehidupan saya terlihat sedemikian menariknya untuk Anda..

untuk Anda bertindak dan berlatih seperti agen FBI ataupun Sherlock Holmes maybe..

mengorek sedalam-dalamnya tentang hidup saya hinga partikel-partikel terkecilnya..

thanks of course for the very first time..

i'm flattered..

indeed, huge honour..

but, hey..

use your own damn great brain, which God gives to you..

gunakan otak dan nalar, dan akal budi Anda-Anda sekalian untuk mengurusi urusan dan diri Anda-Anda sekalian masing-masing..

jangan bertingkah like STUPID DAMN HOES AND GIGOLOS who act like know my life very well more than God..
pada faktanya, Anda-Anda dan hidup Anda juga tidak sempurna, tapi memangnya saya pernah bertindak sedemikian ANNOYING-nya seperti yang Anda-Anda lakukan sekarang??

oh, and yes, i curse.. i use those pearl words..

who cares??????

ooo, saya lupa, Anda-Anda sekalian CARE so damn much..

apa lagi?? ingin menjudge lagi, saya yang biasanya sangat ROHANI, kenapa menggunakan kata-kata itu??

well, those words created and invented for people like you, fools!

saya manusia biasa yang punya batas kesabaran.

and yeah, i reached my boiling point.

btw, no offense..

cukup tau dengan Anda..

dan well, kecewa??

indeed ma'am..

NEVER blame you..

manusia memang punya potensi mengecewakan..

but at least, honeslty..

knowing you for years, you're the last person in my list who has those disappointment potency for me..

sorry for all my mistakes, and reckless, and bitch things i've made for you..

last, one day i'll give my promise to you in real life..

i owe you much much much through many chapters in life, MILLION CHAPTERS instead  :)

hahahahahhahahah XD

Eye Make Up Inspirations!

Girls LOVE MAKE UP!!

yes we do..

enjoy this eye make up inspirations, that i've got from Pinterest !!

Cheers, ladies!!!!!

HAVE A NICE TRY..