Mom...

Somehow, when you trying make your own path, 

but on the other hand you are looking still for your parents' agreements, well mother's agreement for specifically..

Somehow too, from what you told her, she already knows what's best for you..

Just a tiny bit story, and she already knows the point of you telling the story..

Looking for agreement..

Then, out of nowhere, she spilled it out..

I Do What I Hate to Do

As I'm sitting here in my room and in half sleep, half asleep state..
I do realize how I hate design logo so much! By so much I mean like really really much..
I don't know how every designer in this world could make that oh so nice yet meaningful logo.,
MAJOR RESPECT!!
And now I hate myself because I complain about this homework that has to be done with 50 logos by Monday. Well it hasnt to be 50, but minimum 30.. And my friends said they are going to make 50..
Thanks because I am a Taurus, with very competitive nature, I wont settle for 30..
Maybe not going outrageously with 50 but at least 45??
And, again., I hate myself for maybe settling in 45..
My brain kinda explode in silent mode, okay I dont know how to explain how does it feel..
But, it really happened..
When we do something we don't love, it is like this..

She Gets What She Wants, BECAUSE She Works For It

First, nothing I hate more than a pretty well-dressed women who is getting misjudged for being a stupid and spoil rotten princess one..

Why accuse her for being stupid just because she is pretty and well-dressed??

This is the century when women can be pretty, well-dressed, nice/kind hearted AND also smart!!

I was being misjudged for one time when I was an intern in a suck place.. sorry not to sorry..

I'm holding no grudge for this place where I was an intern.. but really it sucks..

The boss of this work place said that she never thought I will get along in her company, remember her work place is all about forest and nature one..

Just because every time I came to work there with my -very natural minimal- makeup on, doesn't mean I couldn't stand working in a forest..

Okay, it was not a forest. more like nature national park..

'Nuff with my story..

But really, why woman can't be pretty and smart??

Nowdays there are many super models who are not only they're pretty and popular but also down to earth, and really smart..

I'm not talking smart like graduated from very prestigious university, but the real smart one..

And what the heck with the stupid theory misjudged number 2, pretty women can't work their asses off and always, again, want to get eveything they want just by playing their lashes..

Well, some pretty women MIGHT doing that..

But, some pretty women are not doing it..

First, pardon me to say this.. I'm pretty enough, and no I'm not a narcissistic by saying I'm pretty enough. I know I'm not that miss beauty pageant pretty kind, but at least some people, older women who are totally stranger, and bumped on me in the street saying I'm pretty :p

So.. back to what I wanna say..

yes, pretty girl like me, HAHAHAHA, works her ass off to earn money by and for herself..

My mom always teach me, if you wanna buy something that you want such as clothes, shoes, makeups, or other fun shits for yourself, WORK FOR IT..

Earn some money and buy it..

I was born from a middle class family..

Sometimes, my mom still buy me my clothes, shoes, makeups, or anything I want of course..

But she gives me limits..

She's not going to spoil me by buying all those expensive shits I want, like ever!

I remember, when I was in a senior high school, I was falling in love with this gorgeous black pump shoes.. It costed IDR 900.000,- back then.. And for high schooler like me, of course it was like cost me quite a fortune..

I wanted them so badly, and I was begging her to buy me..

And my mom said, "That price for shoes is not cheap for girl in your age.. If you really want it, work for it.."

My mom told me to work for buying that shoes, because from my early age as senior high student, I already worked in a wedding organizer, owned by my uncle..
and even i dont have any jobs, at least all i can do was saving money for those shoes..

Even it's owned by my uncle, I get paid with the same amount like his real employees..

Long story short, I got that my very first pump shoes!!

And not only that shoes I was getting, but I get my very first lesson too from my #MOMBOSS

"You want it?? Work for it"

She is my very, again, first #GIRLBOSS

Because Pain is A Drug??

Why people keep getting into relationship after relationship after relationship??

When you break up with your partner, don't you feel it hurts you so much and you hope the pain doesn't really happen??

Maybe getting in a relationship is like getting a tattoo..

People said yes it hurts, like a lot, well because getting a tattoo means you make some artsy scar on your skin, but again, it's addictive..

Maybe getting in a relationship again is like getting pregnant..

It hurts like shit, you get your vagina being cut, but some people said they wanna keep getting pregnant. Again, it's addictive..

But if it -getting a tattoo, pregnant, relationship- hurts, why at the same time it's so addictive??

Doesn't that mean people are crazy cause they like, well like Rihanna said, like the way it hurts??

Why are people getting in a relationship, even they already know, that person might hurt you, intentionally or not intentionally??

Too many questions running through my head this day..
Either is it because my period makes my hormones jump like crazy so I keep asking a silly question, or because I'm keep being my bestie's relationship witness??

Taboo Talk??

Just today, me and my 2 close girls hang out together on a fast food resto..
Ordered a french fries with some milk tea that we bought earlier..
And before I started my story, I think, I'd like to say, women are men with vaginas..
As Carrie Bradshaw said in Sex and The City series, I forgot which episode, she said, Men are women with penis, or otherwise?
Why I'd like to say that statement??
Because asides from all our differences, men and women on conversation's topics mostly are 3 things, if it's not about their opposite sex, hobbies, or sex..
When men hang out together, they will talk mostly about their jobs, women, automotives/ sports, and SEX..
When women hang out together, they will talk mostly about their jobs, men, hot and latest gossips, and SEX too..
Who said when it comes to sex women are so shy to talk about it??
Women don't talk about that as much as men did, it's bullshit..
Maybe if you lived in the age of Kartini, sex is still a taboo to be talked, well at least in Indonesia, my country..
But, I think nowdays, as ages change, and generations change too, sex is not a taboo thing to be discussed, or even to do..
So, back to my topic.. me and my 2 friends, in our early 20s, we are really curious about sex..
Not only because we are a virgin, but I think as the early ladies to be, the hormones about sex just act crazy..
In Indonesia, some women still prefer to save their virginity to their husband to-be even some women already did it before marriage..
So while we still never did that, we prefer to talk about that..
There's nothing wrong with talking about sex and sharing your sex imaginations to your trusty friends, right??
Earlier before I talk about sex with these 2 friends of mine, I had a psychology test with a friend with psychology major.. And the result was.. I had tons of wild sex imaginations.. HAHAHAHA
Again, he ended with, "that's normal.. In your ages, you will think about sex that much.."
And indeed I am agree with him!
But why, while we knows that men are not so different with women about sex talk, it's still taboo for some women in 20s, especially in Indonesia, to talk about it??

Politic Talking, Indonesia President Election 2014

Hi, guys..
during the holiday time I spent my entire days with some of ideas and activities that yeah, i can called it productive..
Recently I help my ex-office senior in redesign her cafe's menu and brochures..
the other things are I bought BBG from Kayla Itsines..
yes, it costs me AUD 69, but since I split the bill with 5 friends, it costs not that expensive though..
I try to have a healthy lifestyle, well, the truth is I try into having a thigh gap..
others are me and 2 friends into a discussion to open small business, and with other 1 friend I try to create a food blog.. Since we are quite best friend, and she is good at food photography..
oh, oh the other thing, still have test shoot with my awesome team, Tiara as the model, Ariokh as the stylist, Haqi as the photographer, and guest member as the model is Anthony..
will post the result later after Haqi retouch the photo..

Okay, next thing I will discuss is like not so me..
well, important thing I want to discuss in my post is my country, Indonesia is so busy with president election, that will be held in July 9th 2014..
the candidates are:
#1 Prabowo-Hatta
#2 Jokowi-JK
before the election, debate as the president and vice president candidates already held..
every week, on Sunday me, well my mom asks me to watch it because it increases your public knowledge, will watch it..
however I missed the versus between the president candidates but..
this Sunday I just watched the debate between Hatta and JK as the representatives from each group as the vice president candidates..
It was on!!
I really impressed with mr JK, he is a smart guy you know..
he answered every answer really well..
on the other side, I'm really not impressed with Hatta..
because, yeah, besides we all know his scandal when he covered the accident caused by his son that took many people's into death..
the other thing, he has a corruption scandal due to many reliable sources..
the other reliable media in Indonesia said that he is a cunning guy..
he always has a way to avoid cases that maybe could caused him as the bad guy and ended in jail..

I'm not saying this because I'm not into him..
but..
according to many reliable media sources such as national newspaper, and according to what I've watched during the debate too..
So, in the 2nd or 3rd round, each candidate could ask a question to one another and it would be answered by one another..

JK asked Hatta "When you were one of the minister during -I forget in what year- could you explain why we still had to import rice from the other country while you said, we, Indonesia, already invent alpha seeds that could supply rice for our own people?"
and you know what Hatta answered?? 
"We supply it for expats in Indonesia.."
mind you, mr Hatta, but.. could I ask you openly
the expats we talked in here mostly is bule, western people okay??
how many expats in Indonesia that we have to supply????? in Indonesia we have that oh so many expats??????
and second one, and the most important, the expats really LOVE to eat rice huh?? so that our rice stocks are not enough???
like really????? DUDE come on!!

I'm not a genius in politic, but I know it's a huge fat lie..
I never so concerned about president election like before..
but, I learn, it's for my country's fate for the next 5 years..
as the minority, well Chinese decent- in Indonesia, we need someone like Alm. Gusdur..
who could understand and accept us like the majority..
I think and I'm pretty sure feel Jokowi-JK is the best choice..
I'm not getting paid for saying this.. but, that's the truth..
Jokowi according to Fortune magazine, is in 1 of the 50 world's top leader list..
many people mock him as the tacky, countrified leader..
mind you people, international admits that he is a good, for me great, leader..
who needs the leader based on the appearance only??
I dont need that, most people wont need that too..
all we need is the leader who has a great quality as the leader, and Jokowi has it!
other people will mock him too because his duty as the Jakarta governor hasn't finished yet..
hey, he becomes on of the president candidate because his party leader, Mrs. Megawati asks him to do that..
why Megawati asks him to do that, because many Indonesians believe he has the right quality as the leader of our nation..
many Indonesians ask Megawati to push him as one of the president candidates..
Megawati said, "You people -Indonesians- ask this tiny man, Jokowi, to become your president.. Here I gave you, choose him because you already asked for him.."

End of my politic post..
Sorry it's maybe boring..
Vote for your country's fate please, Indonesians!!!!
Stop being so ignorant when you have power to decide your country's fate..
And if you choose for being an ignorant, don't say any words if your country's fate is going worse..

I Did It For A Thigh Gap

Apparently, asking for a thigh gap needs more efforts than i thought..

Hahahahaha

Gudlor, God knows how bad I want a thigh gap..

So if I wear skinny jeans it will look good..

I don't ask for a bombshell body like Victoria's Secret Angels, I just ask for a thigh gap..

And wish me luck, during holiday, I can have it..

so, me and some friends who already graduated, no I ain't graduated yet, are preparing for our 2010-2014 class' prom..

and we decided to buy Bikini Body Workout by Kayla Itsines..

it costs AUD 69..

yes, kinda expensive.. but since all six of us split the bill, it's not that expensive but still costs quite much money in my monthly rate.. hahahaha

day 1 and day 2, thank God I did them!!

day 1 I practice what I read from the book, and day 2 get some LISS by walking around neighborhood at 6am..

yesterday, when I just got started, in the first 7 minutes of circuit 1, I almost lose my breath..

judge me, but workout is not my specialty..

I sweat like crazy.. if people said sweat is fat crying, then my fat is sobbing uncontrollably yesterday..

LOL..

True story this morning, I kinda want to go back to sleep when my alarm hit 6am..

but, Eric Thomas' voice was like echoing in my head..

'You just kinda want it, but how if you want it as bad as you want to breath, then you will be successful.. Some of you said, you want to get some sleep, then you want to sleep more than what you want.. Sleeping is only for beggars'

And I was just like, OKAY, ERIC!! I GET UP NOW!!! GEEZ!!!

hahahaha..

yes, and now, my butt and my thigh especially feel really HURT like shit!!

hahahahah

but I'm kinda happy, yet can't stand for it ==!..