Mr and Mrs. Smith :')

My wife got sick. She was constantly nervous because of problems at work, personal life, her failures and children. She lost 30 pounds and weighted about 90 pounds. She got very skinny and was constantly crying. She was not a happy woman. She had suffered from continuing headaches, heart pain and jammed nerves in her back and ribs. She did not sleep well, falling asleep only in the mornings and got tired very quickly during the day.

Our relationship was on the verge of a break up. Her beauty was leaving her somewhere, she had bags under her eyes, she was poking her head, and stopped taking care of herself. She refused to shoot the films and rejected any role. I lost hope and thought that we’ll get divorced soon… But then I decided to act. After all I’ve got the most beautiful woman on earth. She is the idol of more than half of men and women on earth, and I was the one allowed to fall asleep next to her and to hug her. I began to shower her with flowers, kisses and compliments. I surprised and pleased her every minute. I gave her a lot of gifts and lived just for her. I spoke in public only about her. I incorporated all themes in her direction. I praised her in front of her own and our mutual friends. You won’t believe it, but she blossomed. She became better. She gained weight, was no longer nervous and loved me even more than ever. I had no clue that she CAN love that much.

And then I realized one thing: the woman is the reflection of her man.

If you love her to the point of madness, she will become it.

- Brad Pitt

I LOVE YOU MR. BRAD PITT!!

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GOOD GREAT MORNING!!!!

well, apparently now is not morning anymore.. it's 14.45 pm now in my office..

and i already finish my tasks before lunch..

that pict was originally taken by me..

when i flew back from my hometown in Makassar, to Jakarta..

what happened in my life lately is.. LONELY!!

yeapp.. i'm lonely..

wasting my days like crazy routine..

in the rush morning, have to go to office..

get back home extremely tired while i'm on my way home to apartment..

i always ask my senior high school friends here to go out in the weekend..

but, CAN'T.. cause they have their DATING ROUTINE with their partner..

btw.. put that sadness away first..

i'm doing my life well..

and last week i have a chance to go back to Bandung..

well, cause, -ehem!- I WON INTERNATIONAL POSTER COMPETITION in Shanghai last year..

hihihihihihihi..

so happy lahhh..

i think that i will get my money prize, 500 RMB last week..

but because Marcella is so stupid.. well, in fact, we will get our money prize by September..

but it's okay.. since i can hang out with my friend in Bandung for hours..

with Mustache Marcella..

lunch in Tudari, Korean Restaurant, beside campus..

well this is just the compliment one :)

favorite seafood cheese ddeokkbokki!!!! :9

and then i have to go back to Jakarta by 5 o'clock..

and Monday starts again..

Chinese fried noodle as the dinner.. 

taste not too delicious.. but well it's okay since the price is so cheap..

sometimes when I feel lonely, I will open my photos in Shanghai..

and smile for every photos i looked..

it's not pathetic..

i just looking back to the beautiful memories you know :p

this one is in Tianzifang, one of the most famous sight seeing landmark in Shanghai..

again, I miss Shanghai SO MUCH!

last one, latest camwhore!!!!!

hihihi ^^

Me and Peter Pan don't want to grow up

If I can describe journey to be the top position in my office, right now I'm on the bottom side..

HAHAHAH..

still I proud of it..

you know why??

because, have an internship in this big office is not as easy as a piece of cake..

If I can describe my position in food chain, I'll become the easiest prey on the first stage that got eaten..

If I can describe it furthermore in food pyramid, I'll be on the bottom side of the pyramid..

it's still a long long way to achieve top position in office apparently.. except.. your family is a billionaire and become a stockholder..

you'll get the good position as non-executive director I guess..

so.. how if you're just like me..an ordinary intern girl who is struggle from the very beginning and still wants become the jobholder, and wants to get a nice position in this adult work world..

I guess, now I know why Peter Pan didn't want to grow up..

being an adult seems so fun..

you can buy anything you want..

you don't have "night time" anymore..

you can decide your own life..

you can do anything, be anything you want..

but, if I look it from now on..

from my age 21..

it looks scarier and more terrifying..

yes, it's great how you can be so independent with your own life..

but.. as Uncle Ben told Spiderman "with GREAT POWER comes GREAT RESPONSIBILITY.."

as Seth Godin said "GREATNESS is FRIGHTENING. With it comes RESPONSIBILITY."

Connection between "Packaging Design" and "Target Market"

Hiahhhh..
3 o'clock in the afternoon definitely is a time for taking a nap..
now i'm sitting in the office and typing..
tick, tick, tick..
I love my job and my office much..
but this shoulder ache because every single day i have to type is killing me..
and it doesn't count with my obligation to take my heavy laptop with me in the morning and evening..
huhuhu :'(

by the way..
wanna share a forum that i just bumped into this morning..
it seems like a forum for expat living in Jakarta and any things around it..
I didn't have any intentions to find this kind of forum, okay..
so.. the people in here come from any country, but mostly from local Indonesian mixing with expats who live in Jakarta-mostly-..

these accounts that get my attention are the account named NaughtyGab and MissNaughty ah, and SweetMaria..
MissNaughty open the topic with "For The Single Women" title..
and she was talking about how we are girls have to play hard to get IF there's a guy is chasing after you..
why??
because mostly, as we all know, and maybe don't know, that men love CHALLENGE..
okay, from me, I TOTALLY AGREE WITH HER..
but remember, IF there's a guy chasing after you -T&C APPLIED-..
after so many comments, between PROS and CONTRAS..
NG told others with this, -i'd rather copy paste it.. 
"one of my colleague is desperate to get a hubby. i wont say she is ugly, but she is unattractive. the way she dresses, the way she thinks, the fact that she never comb her hair, she refuses to use deodorant or perfume, and after 15 years looking for love ( from univ years until she works now) - she told me that no guys ever came to her ... 
we told her to open her heart for some single guys in their 40s or some widowers. she said no. this is what she said, "if i have to open my heart , means that i am chasing them, and and girls should always play hard to get!. you cant just take anyone available in the market. they have to work hard to win my heart. even it's a close heart. if he is really in love with me, he would be able to melt my heart " 
Note : she also told us that she wants a guy that is a mix between clooney, pitt, ari wibowo and a korean movie star. 
then my other colleague replied: in order to get a prince you have to be a princess. if you are a maid, then dont expect for a prince would come and save you from your crazy world. and before you could define how your prince should look like, it's better to own a mirror. 
that's harsh IMO, but somehow, i guess it's true. if after 15 years man searching work doesnt give any positive result, a princess should forget the 'hard to get' rules i believe. especially a desperate princess. "

and after this trigger, seems like everyone is so excited about it.

and keep comment..

for me, if you keep read the topic and the comments, it will open your brain and mind about this topic..

about how we always want someone to love and accept us just the way we are..

but how, if our physical appearance doesn't attractive at all??

remember, we are not the IT girl like Natalie Portman, nor Keira Knightley..

i'm not going to say that beauty from the outside is more important than beauty from the inside, your personality and other thing you want to say..

but, come on..

as the human..

you will attract to one thing or person because the physical appearance first, right??

because love comes from EYES first, then your personality will make him/her stay..

do not give me that bullshits that say "I LOVE YOU THE WAY YOU ARE.."

or, "if he really loves me, he will accept me like who i am for now.."

LOVE NEVER COMES IN THE FIRST SIGHT, DARLING.."

that's the ugly truth..

because what comes in the first sight is LUST.. NOT LOVE..

oh, and i'm talking here not to suggest you to have body like supermodel -because i'm FAT too!- , with some plastic surgery to makes your appearance looks good -I'm not SO PRETTY either-, or to make you appearance is the FIRST MOST IMPORTANT THING that you have to pay attentions more on it.

but..

i just want to share my opinion about yes, the appearance MATTERS to attract your opposite sex, or maybe your crush..

just think how good packaging of chocolate attracts you more than the bad one..

like this..

i don't know if you will choose the bottom one..
but, me? DEFINITELY the GODIVA..
HAHAHAH..
so, to attract your HIGH END "target market", you as "the company" has to pay attention on your packaging first..
right??
does it make sense now??

Know Your Standard! And Moving On

After reading one thing that really stuck into my head, i wanna share it in here..
The sentences from Kendall Jenner that i read in one of famous magazines in my country..
She is young, pretty, and talented.. being told by her brother in law, Lamar..
He told her, "know your standard and don't make it lower for (some cheap bastards) guy.."
Of course Lamar didn't say the 'some cheap bastards'part..
Ahahahaha..
Then I realize, it doesn't matter if now i'm single.. and obsess about many things..
It doesnt matter if you still pursuit you dream career now..
It doesnt matter even all you see around you are happy couples..
It doesnt matter too even all you girl friends have their couple, and maybe already plan their dream wedding..
I'm not saying here as my standard as great like Kendall Jenner..
I know i'm not a model like her, with perfect body and perfect face..
All i want to share just what Lamar told her..
That even for now, we, single ladies haven't found our half piece, just don't make our standards low because we are so desperate maybe being single and alone, and lonely..
Or another thing.. never think that maybe because we are single that means we haven't move on..
Like this night, my besties said that one of my ex want to hang out..either the purpose is to see me, or just want to hang out as friends, or another thing..
One thing i know for sure, is, i already move on from him..
For now, yes i'm still single but doesnt mean i haven't move on from him..
Even my besties teasing me and think why i dont want to hang out with him because i still have that feeling.. the reality the feeling already gone..
I just don't wanna go out with my friends and with him nearby, but because my mom really hate him of humiliating me, the only one perfect daughter..hehehe, in the past..
You can say my mom is really crazy for not forgiving him, but if i were my mom, maybe i will mutilate him for humiliating my daughter..
Hahahahaha.. yeah, i still be friends with my ex.. i move on, i forgive, but to say i'm forget? A little bit part of me cant do it, bro!
Hahahahaha..
So if sometimes me, and maybe half of single ladies are really sick of our status, the only thing that you guys are forbid to do is..
Never lower your standard!
Cheers, single ladies! Xoxo

Internship Survivor Day 1, 2, 3..

Yesterday was a good start for my internship!
woo-hoo..
why??
because yesterday i didn't have to just browsing whole day long..
in fact, i started waiting for my mentor, well apparently, she came late to office..
yes, in my internship office, one of the top 5 advertising company in whole world, it's British Company, and started with O, you can get to office late..
she came around 11a.m.. while, our office hour started from 9am..
back to topic..
i asked her for something to do, that doesn't content with just browsing all day long..
and work started..
i have to help improve one of our client's -port company- social media with advertising design combine with this month theme, "Idul Fitri Celebration"..
okay.. I guess I can do that..
another jobs came.. started from same job with the first job but with different client -government-
sorry, I cannot tell my company's clients..
since our -me and my internship office- agreement include not to mention our clients..
yes, sir as the fresh internship, I'm really excited about it!
continue with another jobs, that is about making an inline content with my team for the new client..
omg.. i talk like i really already join the main team in this company..
hahahahahah XD
later, i'll just finished helping my senior to design campaign room sketch in 5 star hotel in Jakarta..
the campaign is for international insurance client, dude..
yeah..
client's scale in my company is really huge quality..
from the government, gas station, port company, and international insurance..
btw..
i have my internship in their PR, not the advertising..

all i love the most about this company, this office is..
1.. my senior is really respect me, and didn't underestimate or even worse bully me..
they are nice people.. who ask for your help with "please help, Gab.." and end it with "thank you, Gab.."
maybe looks so simple.. but for me, in this capital city.. it's HUGE..
not so many people in this city even can say "excuse me.."
imagine that!
2.. my company's dress policy.. you don't have to wear formal dress..
from advertising division, they even have good fashion skills.. casual adorable..
or casual funky!
mine, is t-shirt, or any casual polo shirt, combine with skinny jeans, and sneakers.. or cute flat shoes..
but no flip-flops..
maybe later i'll take photo and upload it how to dress casually in my internship office..
3.. you can say, many good looking western guys..
HAHAHAHAH..
yeah, i just say good looking, but doesn't mean i want to try flirting with one of them..
why? because..
 3.1 They are my bosses! -darn it!-
 3.2 Mostly they are around 30's I guess..
 3.3 I'm new intern girl and really looks like campus casual girl, girl, not lady even woman! -.-!
 3.4 I don't have any courage to do that silly stupid impolite things..
 3.5 There are so many beautiful half breed ladies in my office, who, yeah can toss me so easily from guy's visibility.. I knew myself enough.. HAHAHAHA
4.. this company will have training program with us, the internships this Friday! yeeyyy..

I guess that's all I can share about my internship, these 3 first days..
will do some of my tasks first..
wish me luck!

Finding The One

Okay, now here i am sitting..
FYI, this is the first day of my internship in Ogilvy and Mather Indonesia..
in Ogilvy Public Relations exactly..
while just a few minutes ago, my mentor, Mrs. Chitra asked me to do some research about one of our client..
i already opened a few tabs about it..
so don't say that i didn't do my job.. i already opened it, just didn't read and research about it yet..
hehehe :D

back to what I want to share in this post..
finding The One..
well.. maybe you already sick seeing my blog talking about this issue..
or around this issue..
love, boyfriend, and other stuffs surrounded..
let's admit it, finding your "THE ONE" is not as easy as finding which clothes you want to wear today..
is not as easy as piece of cake..
is not as easy of saying and talk about it..
finding your "THE ONE" needs more than agreement between you and your couple, and your two families..
it's about finding quality inside him/ her..
for us, girls it's even harder..
from our mom we already given advice to married rich guy, or not too rich but at least not below your family's economy.. short words, stable financially..
good looking, and smart,,
with perfect family, and perfect breed where he's come from..

okay, if rich or money is about the standard.. i'll let you know 1 true story from my experience..
last night I had to accompany my friend in her gathering..
the things I love about in gathering, except the awkwardness meeting new people, is knowing them..
share some stuffs not personally.. and just yaahhh chit chat chilling..
let's say my friend has many friends in her gathering.. but the only people I talked quite intense with, just 2 people besides me..
named Ms. Hotty Banana- it's just random silly name.. don't make a connection between her fake name and other XX..
She has quite nice body.. tiny eyes with long thick eyeliner, and DYE brown color hair..
but, if you look closely, under her cardigan, she has a big boobs for her thin body! hotty, aight, men????
don't think either it's original or fake.. cos I don't give a shit..
HAHAHAHA..
from the way she talks.. I know, she already has quite crazy experience with guys..
She told me, that she already has a boyfriend.. with tattoo.. and they already slept together..
err, the part of slept with her boyfriend I knew, not from her.. I just know..
that's so bullshit if I said she just told me that "private" talk, whom she just knew for a moment..
other things, are between her nice, rich boyfriend - which I catch from her story- is one guy who is chasing after her..
part adult guy. rich?? of course..
because she said that guy always ask her to buy anything she wants, and that guy will buy for her.. she just needs to say it to him..
if she wants to have some crazy party in an elite club, and open many drinks with fucking expensive LABEL, she just needs to say to him..
branded bags?? branded shoes?? again, she just needs to say to him..
platinum credit card with huge limits of it, yepp, she just needs to say to him..
it's like.. WHOO, dude!
but.. the only thing that we have to know is.. HE'S PART ADULT MARRIED GUY!
married!
ironic huh?? he's so damn RICH..
first step about stable financially.. this guy or man?? totally pass!
but the words after he's rich, also he's married other woman already..
and maybe already has kids??

if we take next step, we talk about the appearance, physically and mentally of course..
who doesn't want marry a good looking and smart guy as hell??
again, from Ms. Hotty Banana..
she definitely has many connections!
she told me about this one guy.. single, young, around 25's..
stable financially?? you can judge by your side based from my informations..
this guy helps his older sister to go to one of few famous fashion colleges in Indonesia..
he pays for his older sister's education fee..
we all know, study in famous fashion college-which started from E alphabet-, is not cheap..
he also study in PR major in other famous university..
other things are, he already could built a two floor-good apartment for his parents..
he wears glasses, look smart.. and yes he's smart.. because he can get clean income not less than 8 digit..
his face is clean without acne on it..
he's so soft too.. but not gentle..
he's so talkative, and nice to talk..
another BUT is coming, darling.. 
BUT HE'S GAY!
yah, he likes banana with banana.. not banana with donut..
HAHAHA..

last one, is about his/her family..
where does he come from?? which family??
either our couple's family has bad record in contagious disease that can attack your descent or not??
or our couple's family has mental disease which apparently also contagious..
besides healthy record, also the other things to take seriously is..
the nice happy family like Barney's song, or our couple has his family already divorced..
I don't know about other value from you, guys..
but from people surrounded me.. the adults..
always disagree if their daughter/ son has couple with broken family status..
they said it's contagious.. like diabetic in your family..
you can't qualified this one as disease like diabetic..
how if this guy is really rich, straight, single, good looking as hell and also smart not only in the school but also in reality field, has nice happy family just like Barney's song..
his mom is really nice..
his dad has good jobs and definitely can left him more than money, success company, and other things as the legacy to him..
he's also apparently just come back to Indonesia from his studying process abroad..
again, BUT..
BUT, he's a total clubber party maniac..
he's a douchebag with one night stand fathom..
so, of course, it's nearly impossible to make him stay right beside you..
because you will always know that there's more than one girl will stay right beside him..
maybe one fact that I read from one website is true fact..
Straight parents raise wildest children..
maybe not all straight parents, but more than half??

So.. it takes more than money, mature, and matter good-looking, right??
But if you takes too many consideration and qualified for your "The One", will it be too impossible to reach..
and MAYBE you'll end up with nobody but yourself??
Or, you can compromise about your standard, and does that sound like you'll get your standard down to have your "The One"??