Shanghai Trip Part 2!!!!

First day after arrived in Shanghai, we hit Forever 21!

I bought strappy sandals for Summer and polkadot cosmetic bag and vintage comb!

Mischa a.k.a Mohammed, Alex, Valerie, Marcella and me..

had dinner in Perry's before club for the first time in this trip..

second preparation before party!

failed to attend GNO in Bar Rouge, but still take photos!!

HAHAHAHA..

failed to attend GNO in Bar Rouge, we decided to go to Richy,,

had a great time

with Diana, Keke and Kasih for the first time hit People's Square..

Second day is Shanghai Museum!

It was raining, and my face yes I know, FATTER AND WIDER..

so whatever lahhh..

Had a great waffle, and Ice Cappucino Latte in Maan Coffee, K-Town (Shanghai)

in the next day..

in Lomo Shop - Maoming Road, Shanghai

pose with Diana's tiny lomo Diana camera..

I don't know which day was it..

but we went to The Bund, took photos and home..

aaa.. while I was walking to The Bund..

in a small street, I met my junior high school prefect, Elisa Naba!!!

she's so gorgeous now!

still fun person..

hahahah XD.. while i was in a messy mode, she insisted me to took photo with her..

gosh.. as the result.. i look like a piece of shit, while she looked so damn gorgeous!

hahahah..

after went to Thames Town, we went to Tianzifang..

and chilling out it More Than Toilet Cafe..

yep.. cafe with toilet concept!!

it's creative though!

BEST POO I'VE EVER EAT!!

hahahah.. kidding lahh.. it's chocolate ice cream puff..

delicioso!

THAMES TOWN!!!

before hittin' farewell party..

Valerie, Marcella and me..

(clockwise) Marcella, Kasih, Diana, Valerie and me..

geee, i'm SO FAT!!

farewell party in S2 Club..

after the party, we LITERALLY threw up TOGETHER!!

hahahhaa XD

the feeling sucks.. but still a great memories to remember!

Keke was too shy to pose for camera..

Pork Ribs Azul Tapas Lounge's Style..

after Diana, Keke, and Kasih left..

Me, Marcella, Alex, and Valerie had a nice dinner in Azul Tapas Lounge in Ferguson Lane..

the price for it's food worth it with the taste!

GOOD BYE SHANGHAI!!!

ALL THE BEST FROM THIS CITY!!!

party, drunk, shopping, fight, conflict, love, friendships, and many great things I've got here..

will miss you so much!!!

THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES!!!

CAMWHORE first.. HAHAHAHAH

Could people really changed? Because in my mind, I always think that people cannot change.. They just show their true colors..

Just this afternoon I talked with my best sister, Jethe..

I had an incident yesterday which better no to be told in here..

but the incident made me so emotional and couldn't have my self to controlled.. i lose my mind and lose control..

literally.. i screamed, shouted, swore, and broke things.. my things.. in my boy friend's room..

Boy SPACE friend..

he was my senior high school friend..

later than I knew, he told my mom about my behavior.. well I know I was wrong, but can he the hell shut his mouth???

if he really wants me to take his advice to control myself, just tell me after I got crazt.. 

who people on the earth can be told when they are getting so fucking angry???

WHO???

not only that, he again told my mom that he never saw MOST RUDE GIRL BESIDES ME..

oo let me tell you, there are so many girls out there MORE RUDE THAN ME while they can't control their anger!

after that, he told my mom, that "because I'm so rude" for a girl, I broke my kost's cupboard and shelf..

HAHAHAHAH.. you gotta be kidding man..

you already knew too, that kost's stuffs are TOO OLD.. the shelf's wood already moldy, and the nails behind the mirror in that stupid cupboard already rusty..

come on, dude.. don't talk too many shits that don't caused by me..

oh, and you said that i played music in my laptop so LOUD??

how about those 2 guys that always open their room's door and play guitar and sing??

or the other neighbor who always play his music so loud??

if I just don't remember you as my old friend, i would never see your face again..

but, I try to apologize to you the next day.. and maybe can forget about it..

this day.. i woke up, felt much better, and i admitted that I was so wrong yesterday that i couldn't control my emotion..

and myself..

I said sorry to him and to people who get my anger..

I apologized..

well.. because mostly my best sister told me to..

it doesn't mean that I lose something - pride- if I apologized..

it just means that i already grown up enough to admit my mistake..

then my best sister told me to change my behavior a little bit..

remembering my age already turned 21..

but can I?? and is that true that people change???

it's just not as easy to change what already have been in you for the whole time..

every time I try to manage my emotion, I always just failed like shit..

because out there seems like there are too many shits try your patience..

God.. I really don't know if I can manage my whole life and myself again..

because seems, after too much having fun, being crazy with my friends for this past 1 year, I literally cannot stop..

I want to.. but.. hh I don't know..

so, can I change for better??

can I??

21st Birthday Greetings

from one of my besties, Diana Pangestuti Christiningrum

from one of my partners in Shanghai, Irene

from my Practic Work pal, Agatha Tiara

from my senior since senior high school, Suryanto Aliejadi Lo, Guangzhou greeting!

from my partner in food crime, Vincent something something..

from my cousin, Ce Victoria Christie Cowandy..

from my junior, Ryllana Dellera..

from one of my besties, Kasih Putri Raharja..

she was the second who gave me bday greeting..

from my senior in college, now works in Jakarta, Mamih Pipin -Laurensia Vidya-

from one of my partners in Shanghai, Cindy -Irene's BFF-

From my co-worker used to be, Ko Siendy..

from one of my besties' BF, Harley Lhupin..

from one of my childhood friends until now, Prilly Pangleway..

from my partner in gossip crime, Randy Ariestha a.k.a RANDUTT..

from one of my besties, Maggie Limputri.. *miss you so damn much, dear*

from my college friend, Mariska Regina..

from my junior, Yessinia..

from my queen mama..

from my church senior, Ko Yoseph..

from my college friend, Ridha Purnama

from my junior high school friend, Silvia Lauw..

from my college friend, Ghea Levina..

from my senior high school friend, Rinaldy Chin..

from my senior high school friend, Vincent Limputra..

from one of my besties, Priscillia Junita Linardi..

from one of my besties, Dianike Dewi Saraswati..

from my church friend, Jordan..

from one of my besties, Ce Viranika Admelo Fondaris..

from my senior high school friend, Chintya Tandiari Gunawan..

from one of my besties, Lisia Gandhatama..

from my college friend, Sellina Liem..

from my college friend, Metha Tricia..

from one of my besties, Feny Tjongarta.. *MISS HER!!*

from my genius college friend, Elwina Willianto..

from my senior high school friend, Kevin Winardo..

from my college friend, Sonia..

tons of wishes..

even some people from last year didn't give me greetings,

doesn't mean they don't care about me, right?

may in my 21st bday, i could be more mature in many things in so many ways..

and, grateful all the time for what i have now..

since, i always forget to count on my happiness and my beautiful messy life :')

thank God!

Officially 21 Years OLD now!!

Yep!! Happy bday to me!!
I'm officially 21 y.o now!!

means, maturity I think..

but still have to keep young spirit inside me :D

my edited photo from Kasih Putri Raharja..

one of my bestie!!

thank you darling :*

and this one from my bestie, Marcella..

also thank you so much much darling!! :*

Thank you for the birthday cake, guys..

Seanzha, Diana,Dianike, Kitty, Cathy and Kasih..

you guys really surprised me with "i want to get my helmet" story made up by Kitty :')

mostly my birthday wishes are..

first, be more patient..

hahhaha XD

yeah, I know, I still couldn't handle that issue..

but I'll try in my 21 y.o as WOMAN..

hahahaha :D

second.. is getting "cetar membahana"

I don't know how to explain it in English..

third and last..

I get boyfriend..

hahahahha XD

my status as single sometimes really makes my friend busy..

busy for keep trying to matchmaking me..

geez..

I'm 21, guys!!

I still have a lot of time..

and, finding someone that really suits you, and wanna be with you and accept you for who you are, is not that instantly..

but, I'll admit, I have to take this issue a little bit serious..

:p

THIS IS A GREAT BIRTHDAY!!!!!

woohooo!!!!!

Yeah i know it's been a long time since my last post..

but who cares??

there's no one who will read this except myself..

It's started as a good day..

had class like usually until at night had a discussion with a best friend about internship..

no, it's not just internship case..

no, it's not just one of the requirements that you need to graduate pursuing your degree..

but it's MORE THAN THAT!

this fucking thing already drive me crazy for past months..

yeah, i know that i sound like stupid idiot girl..

and of course unfaithful one..

it costs more than powers, stresses, and tears..

maybe my mental as the designer one completely not formed..

i know, i am lack of confidence and cheesy mental..

i was just like something tiny that try to fight the stream, HUGE STREAM..

how you're not getting stress knowing that you're not good enough for the big city, capital city.

knowing that there are more RIVALS than a chance to getting in..

mostly, knowing that no one really push you, well except your mom and God who always will beside you..

that even your friend,

that you always push and encourage didn't give you more than "some words that suit for throwing you down the hills"

yes, they dont mean that..

but how you expect them to encourage you as you did the same too is not coming..

she said, i still need to find my true identity..

while, Carrie Bradshaw and mostly half of world's population said, "it takes whole life to find your true identity"

and graahhhhh i dont know why i have to feel so annoying know that my friends won't react as the same as i hope..

Find Out That My Mom Was Right

Well, it's been very long time since i weren't blogging anymore..
since i come back home..
back to my country..
my city..
and then head to another city continuing my university..
it's really boring process you know..
moving back from a megapolitan city like Shanghai, to not so megapolitan city like Bandung..
it's not megapolitan in fact!
it's really good place you know..
when you want many cafes, many distros, many cultural creative activity, they got it here!
but, yapp..i still in my euforia "living in an awesome place" like Shanghai..

btw..
it's not the point i wanna share here..
the point i wanna share here is about my mom..
amazing woman, even sometimes i really feel she was annoying..
heyy just sometimes okay?
i still love her as much..
she is a great mom..
lots of advices -like other Asian mom all over the world-
and well, -i just realized this-..
the way she looks at something..
even it seems like not true, and seems like she makes herself looks like "ms.know it all"..
at last i find that she was right..
wanna share that something that i used to think, "not all man doing that"
to, "yes, my mom was right"
why i can find out that she was right, 
because i just watch Steve Harvey, expert in relationship, saying my mom words..
MEN ONLY CAN THINK ABOUT SEX, THEY ALWAYS THINK ABOUT IT.
well, maybe that's not the very perfect how my mom and Steve Harvey said..
the thing is, WHEN IT COMES TO WOMEN, GUYS ALWAYS WANT SOMETHING FOR YOU..
and that SOMETHING just around sex..
it's funny when i just realized that..
how my mom can have that conclusion similiar to Steve Harvey..
my mom just great, even she's not perfect all the time..

just that i wanna post..
i don't know if i can post anything again from my very boring life..
my friends said that i just need to let go that euforia, and back to reality..
when my responsibility back to university issues, and around studying..
no play too much again, hang out too much again, party too much again, clubbing too much again, and drinking too much again..
i miss Shanghai all the time!!!! that's the problem how hard to let go that euforia!