Happy new year 2014!
I Know it is sooo late for saying it..
Hahahaha..
I just wanna share, how my life turned like roller coaster in the end of 2013 and now is the beginning of 2014..
I just finished my awesome internship in Ogilvy Public Relations as intern designer and sometimes be AE intern too..
I love love my job, and all people around me in the office..
Despite all of that, i remembered my final lunch with my one of the best bosses i've ever had, Mr. W..
He treated me for lunch that day, Japanese tonkatsu.. which is worth every penny..
And we talked and talked, i already said that i consider him as my big brother, had i?
Well, and he thought me as his little sister too..what a great boss, huh?
Not just that, he also gave me his words, in future, if i need him to help with career, he would gladly help me..
I was just, mindblown that time..
Bless you, sir W!
Hahahaha
Now, i already back in reality, that i have to continue my campus life, cause i havent finished my degree yet..
And i dont know what i should feel..
From 1 side, i am really happy to be back to campus life and back to meet my closest friends..
But the other side, yes i am sad that i have to leave such a great company and all the people in it..
The other side again, i just cant help to think about my family financial things..
Yes, it's always been there..
I couldnt help it sometimes to think if there any of my friends in my friends' circle that maybe have some thought as i have..
How to struggle..
How to keep it by myself..
How to think what can i do to earn my own money, and maybe could help my parents..
Yet, i cant figure anything..
I already applied part time job in coffee shop, but still havent heard any from them..
And, other thing.. i am such a coward..
I always imagine myself to have my own business, to start it, but..i just cant.. i am so coward.. i always think i cant handle failure if it happens, yes, it will happen i know, cause people always said, success and failure always come in one package..
I just cant wait myself to graduate and live on my own and maybe have guts to start my business soon..
Be responsible for my self as my own..
Here i am in my hometown, back to home.. yet cant feel it as my home anymore..
I am glad i can be here again..
But, slightly uncomfortable..
Hard to believe..
By the way..
Another thing i always struggled with despite money things, is love!
Hahahahaha
Yeah, i am hopeless in romance and love things..
But recently, i read all romance erotic novels..
Heyy, i am 21!i am legal for those books..
50 Shades of Grey trilogy, and now on progress Beautiful Bastard series, and sooner Tangled series..
Hahahaha
They are really damn good books, and cant wait myself for FSOG series as movies..
Back to what i wanna say..
Is love something that so easy come?
You just see someone, lust at the first sight, and two people feel hot electricty between them, cant hold it, losing themselves each other, do make love, and in the end they are together..
So fiction, i know!
I wish, finding your half just as easy as that..
But, reality is not fiction..
It's just way more complicated huh?
When all my friends in campus seems so easy to find love, and then some of them are engaged, yes they are engaged already before our graduation, i am here still struggle with what does love mean?
I Know it is sooo late for saying it..
Hahahaha..
I just wanna share, how my life turned like roller coaster in the end of 2013 and now is the beginning of 2014..
I just finished my awesome internship in Ogilvy Public Relations as intern designer and sometimes be AE intern too..
I love love my job, and all people around me in the office..
Despite all of that, i remembered my final lunch with my one of the best bosses i've ever had, Mr. W..
He treated me for lunch that day, Japanese tonkatsu.. which is worth every penny..
And we talked and talked, i already said that i consider him as my big brother, had i?
Well, and he thought me as his little sister too..what a great boss, huh?
Not just that, he also gave me his words, in future, if i need him to help with career, he would gladly help me..
I was just, mindblown that time..
Bless you, sir W!
Hahahaha
Now, i already back in reality, that i have to continue my campus life, cause i havent finished my degree yet..
And i dont know what i should feel..
From 1 side, i am really happy to be back to campus life and back to meet my closest friends..
But the other side, yes i am sad that i have to leave such a great company and all the people in it..
The other side again, i just cant help to think about my family financial things..
Yes, it's always been there..
I couldnt help it sometimes to think if there any of my friends in my friends' circle that maybe have some thought as i have..
How to struggle..
How to keep it by myself..
How to think what can i do to earn my own money, and maybe could help my parents..
Yet, i cant figure anything..
I already applied part time job in coffee shop, but still havent heard any from them..
And, other thing.. i am such a coward..
I always imagine myself to have my own business, to start it, but..i just cant.. i am so coward.. i always think i cant handle failure if it happens, yes, it will happen i know, cause people always said, success and failure always come in one package..
I just cant wait myself to graduate and live on my own and maybe have guts to start my business soon..
Be responsible for my self as my own..
Here i am in my hometown, back to home.. yet cant feel it as my home anymore..
I am glad i can be here again..
But, slightly uncomfortable..
Hard to believe..
By the way..
Another thing i always struggled with despite money things, is love!
Hahahahaha
Yeah, i am hopeless in romance and love things..
But recently, i read all romance erotic novels..
Heyy, i am 21!i am legal for those books..
50 Shades of Grey trilogy, and now on progress Beautiful Bastard series, and sooner Tangled series..
Hahahaha
They are really damn good books, and cant wait myself for FSOG series as movies..
Back to what i wanna say..
Is love something that so easy come?
You just see someone, lust at the first sight, and two people feel hot electricty between them, cant hold it, losing themselves each other, do make love, and in the end they are together..
So fiction, i know!
I wish, finding your half just as easy as that..
But, reality is not fiction..
It's just way more complicated huh?
When all my friends in campus seems so easy to find love, and then some of them are engaged, yes they are engaged already before our graduation, i am here still struggle with what does love mean?
