Me and Peter Pan don't want to grow up

If I can describe journey to be the top position in my office, right now I'm on the bottom side..

HAHAHAH..

still I proud of it..

you know why??

because, have an internship in this big office is not as easy as a piece of cake..

If I can describe my position in food chain, I'll become the easiest prey on the first stage that got eaten..

If I can describe it furthermore in food pyramid, I'll be on the bottom side of the pyramid..

it's still a long long way to achieve top position in office apparently.. except.. your family is a billionaire and become a stockholder..

you'll get the good position as non-executive director I guess..

so.. how if you're just like me..an ordinary intern girl who is struggle from the very beginning and still wants become the jobholder, and wants to get a nice position in this adult work world..

I guess, now I know why Peter Pan didn't want to grow up..

being an adult seems so fun..

you can buy anything you want..

you don't have "night time" anymore..

you can decide your own life..

you can do anything, be anything you want..

but, if I look it from now on..

from my age 21..

it looks scarier and more terrifying..

yes, it's great how you can be so independent with your own life..

but.. as Uncle Ben told Spiderman "with GREAT POWER comes GREAT RESPONSIBILITY.."

as Seth Godin said "GREATNESS is FRIGHTENING. With it comes RESPONSIBILITY."

Connection between "Packaging Design" and "Target Market"

Hiahhhh..
3 o'clock in the afternoon definitely is a time for taking a nap..
now i'm sitting in the office and typing..
tick, tick, tick..
I love my job and my office much..
but this shoulder ache because every single day i have to type is killing me..
and it doesn't count with my obligation to take my heavy laptop with me in the morning and evening..
huhuhu :'(

by the way..
wanna share a forum that i just bumped into this morning..
it seems like a forum for expat living in Jakarta and any things around it..
I didn't have any intentions to find this kind of forum, okay..
so.. the people in here come from any country, but mostly from local Indonesian mixing with expats who live in Jakarta-mostly-..

these accounts that get my attention are the account named NaughtyGab and MissNaughty ah, and SweetMaria..
MissNaughty open the topic with "For The Single Women" title..
and she was talking about how we are girls have to play hard to get IF there's a guy is chasing after you..
why??
because mostly, as we all know, and maybe don't know, that men love CHALLENGE..
okay, from me, I TOTALLY AGREE WITH HER..
but remember, IF there's a guy chasing after you -T&C APPLIED-..
after so many comments, between PROS and CONTRAS..
NG told others with this, -i'd rather copy paste it.. 
"one of my colleague is desperate to get a hubby. i wont say she is ugly, but she is unattractive. the way she dresses, the way she thinks, the fact that she never comb her hair, she refuses to use deodorant or perfume, and after 15 years looking for love ( from univ years until she works now) - she told me that no guys ever came to her ... 
we told her to open her heart for some single guys in their 40s or some widowers. she said no. this is what she said, "if i have to open my heart , means that i am chasing them, and and girls should always play hard to get!. you cant just take anyone available in the market. they have to work hard to win my heart. even it's a close heart. if he is really in love with me, he would be able to melt my heart " 
Note : she also told us that she wants a guy that is a mix between clooney, pitt, ari wibowo and a korean movie star. 
then my other colleague replied: in order to get a prince you have to be a princess. if you are a maid, then dont expect for a prince would come and save you from your crazy world. and before you could define how your prince should look like, it's better to own a mirror. 
that's harsh IMO, but somehow, i guess it's true. if after 15 years man searching work doesnt give any positive result, a princess should forget the 'hard to get' rules i believe. especially a desperate princess. "

and after this trigger, seems like everyone is so excited about it.

and keep comment..

for me, if you keep read the topic and the comments, it will open your brain and mind about this topic..

about how we always want someone to love and accept us just the way we are..

but how, if our physical appearance doesn't attractive at all??

remember, we are not the IT girl like Natalie Portman, nor Keira Knightley..

i'm not going to say that beauty from the outside is more important than beauty from the inside, your personality and other thing you want to say..

but, come on..

as the human..

you will attract to one thing or person because the physical appearance first, right??

because love comes from EYES first, then your personality will make him/her stay..

do not give me that bullshits that say "I LOVE YOU THE WAY YOU ARE.."

or, "if he really loves me, he will accept me like who i am for now.."

LOVE NEVER COMES IN THE FIRST SIGHT, DARLING.."

that's the ugly truth..

because what comes in the first sight is LUST.. NOT LOVE..

oh, and i'm talking here not to suggest you to have body like supermodel -because i'm FAT too!- , with some plastic surgery to makes your appearance looks good -I'm not SO PRETTY either-, or to make you appearance is the FIRST MOST IMPORTANT THING that you have to pay attentions more on it.

but..

i just want to share my opinion about yes, the appearance MATTERS to attract your opposite sex, or maybe your crush..

just think how good packaging of chocolate attracts you more than the bad one..

like this..

i don't know if you will choose the bottom one..
but, me? DEFINITELY the GODIVA..
HAHAHAH..
so, to attract your HIGH END "target market", you as "the company" has to pay attention on your packaging first..
right??
does it make sense now??

Know Your Standard! And Moving On

After reading one thing that really stuck into my head, i wanna share it in here..
The sentences from Kendall Jenner that i read in one of famous magazines in my country..
She is young, pretty, and talented.. being told by her brother in law, Lamar..
He told her, "know your standard and don't make it lower for (some cheap bastards) guy.."
Of course Lamar didn't say the 'some cheap bastards'part..
Ahahahaha..
Then I realize, it doesn't matter if now i'm single.. and obsess about many things..
It doesnt matter if you still pursuit you dream career now..
It doesnt matter even all you see around you are happy couples..
It doesnt matter too even all you girl friends have their couple, and maybe already plan their dream wedding..
I'm not saying here as my standard as great like Kendall Jenner..
I know i'm not a model like her, with perfect body and perfect face..
All i want to share just what Lamar told her..
That even for now, we, single ladies haven't found our half piece, just don't make our standards low because we are so desperate maybe being single and alone, and lonely..
Or another thing.. never think that maybe because we are single that means we haven't move on..
Like this night, my besties said that one of my ex want to hang out..either the purpose is to see me, or just want to hang out as friends, or another thing..
One thing i know for sure, is, i already move on from him..
For now, yes i'm still single but doesnt mean i haven't move on from him..
Even my besties teasing me and think why i dont want to hang out with him because i still have that feeling.. the reality the feeling already gone..
I just don't wanna go out with my friends and with him nearby, but because my mom really hate him of humiliating me, the only one perfect daughter..hehehe, in the past..
You can say my mom is really crazy for not forgiving him, but if i were my mom, maybe i will mutilate him for humiliating my daughter..
Hahahahaha.. yeah, i still be friends with my ex.. i move on, i forgive, but to say i'm forget? A little bit part of me cant do it, bro!
Hahahahaha..
So if sometimes me, and maybe half of single ladies are really sick of our status, the only thing that you guys are forbid to do is..
Never lower your standard!
Cheers, single ladies! Xoxo